hello substack, my old friend
Am I back? Yes, yes I am.
This is a post about everything I’ve been up to lately before I fully dig my heels back into the world of Substack writing. Having not posted in over a year, I’ve found my way back to Substack— hiding my old posts, and holding in me a fresh new desire to begin again.
I miss writing. I’ve even started physically journaling again. How did I ever go from journaling every single day to rarely journaling at all, I have no idea. But I’m back to the basics with a handy-dandy composition notebook and pencil. It’s actually been so long since I’ve journaled with either.
Though I’m just now getting back into the swing of Substack and journaling, I haven’t given up poetry. I have a collection of beautifully written saved poems on my Notion. Some of the titles of my favorite I’ve written this year are, “God and His Daughter,” “Not Quite a Meeting,” “Dreamer,” (it’s only three lines but it’s honest work), and “A Friend Called Gorgeous,” (a poem about my gorgeous gorgeous longest friend). I don’t know with my new start here if I’ll get to share my poems but they are my favorite things to write. Time will tell.
Other than that, I haven’t been up to much. I’m in a very deep and unbreakable gaming phase. Gaming with my cousin and separately, my brother’s girlfriend, has been fun. I currently have plans to play Stardew Valley with my cousin later tonight (very much looking forward to that).
I’ve also been seeking God lately, can you believe it? What that looks like: reading the bible, praying, journaling, learning from others in the faith (christianity). I don’t have much to share as of now about my journey but maybe one day. I started fasting more as well— feeling that it’s apart of my journey (faith) and also desperately wanting to beat this really bad sweet-tooth and food addiction I have. What I’ve learned so far: it’s better for me to fast all day and break that fast in the evening and that I’ve been able to do more (like going for walks) now that food isn’t clouding my flesh. That last part is merely an hypothesis but I’m determined to see if it stands the test of time.
So what’s my plan for the rest of the year I wonder. As you know, it’s October so it’s been really, really, cold. We went to Canada last weekend (such a great time) and I was able to buy pink earmuffs and pink gloves. My plan is to use them more and more and take more and more walks. I seek to keep seeking and being curious when it comes to faith. I desire to keep facing my fears no matter how big or small. I crave to keep having fun and spending time with my family and friends. And lastly, I will post on Substack whenever my heart feels so. No pressure but not letting up on my hopes either.
Thanks for reading,
Love Tyb.
